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The poetry that popped in

March 24, 2015

You are in my heart.

When you doubt for one moment,

this truth that I share,

know it is your mind that doubts.

Listen to your own heart.

You may hear the truth of my truth.

You may feel the truth of my truth.

The doubt is in your mind.

My truth is in your heart.

And you are in mine.

ML  03-24-15

December 13, 2014

And the day waits
for me like
a lover waits
for kisses
for touch
for connection.

When I rise before the sun
and witness the light slowly
fill the sky
I imagine you
and I
made it so.

I am reminded of
the potential of today
and the miracle that
I
and you
are alive in it.

-ML 12-13-14

Duet

October 15, 2014

I’m reading ‘Letters to a Young Poet’ this morning. A book of letters written from Ranier Maria Rilke to Franz Xaver Kappus. Kappus wrote the introduction to the book and in it says a few things that I want to remember.

“…..I resolved in that very hour to send my poetical efforts to Ranier Maria Rilke and ask for his opinion.”

I especially love, “….I resolved in that very hour….”

These words are heavy with emotion and a desire to find information. I can feel the weight of his resolution and I know he will do what he intends. Not only because I’ve read these letters many, many times, but “….I resolved in that very hour….” has a confident urgency.

Another line further down in the same paragraph further connects me to Kappus’ desire and vulnerability. He is “….hoping to find understanding, if anywhere at all….” and then he writes, “And without my actually having wished it, my verses came to be accompanied by a covering letter in which I revealed myself without reserve as I have never done before or since to another human being. ”

I don’t quite understand why he says, “And without my actually having wished it….” because in the lines before he seems so determined and desperate to communicate with Rilke. What I do love is, “….I revealed myself without reserve as I have never done before or since to another human being.”

We never get to read what Kappus writes to Rilke. Kappus tells us he reveals himself to Rilke “without reserve” and yet we can’t read what “without reserve” means to Kappus.

Knowing Rilke’s letters like I do and the deep truths embedded in them, I have no doubt that Kappus revealed himself to Rilke in a very intimate and vulnerable way. The wisdom written in the letters can only be known by a wise and insightful person who has also been in the throes of wanting the questions of his deepest heart answered. A wise person who can hear the longing from another and know how to respond with gentle truth. A perfectly timed connection of two souls, Kappus and Rilke, both open to giving and receiving to and from each other, one without reserve and the other with a wise reserve and gentle truth.

I’ve known this kind of relationship. Sometimes, most of the time, I am the one revealing myself without reserve. I notice when I do this and I’m met with wise and gentle truth, I am deeply effected by the lessons these relationships bring. And even when I’m met with something different than gentle truth, I still learn.

When I recognize the lesson embedded in the partnership of vulnerability and gentle truth, I can respond in a way that makes my soul sing.

37 Wishes

June 15, 2013

1. Love, I wish for you.
2. I wish for you, happiness.
3. I wish for you, good health.
4. I wish for you, strength.
5. I wish for you, softness.
6. I wish for you, laughter.
7. I wish for you, silence.
8. I wish for you, music.
9. I wish for you, LOVE.
10. I wish for you, beauty.
11. I wish for you, peace.
12. I wish for you, power.
13. I wish for you, faith.
14. I wish for you, truth.
15. I wish for you, learning.
16. I wish for you, flexibility.
17. I wish for you, comfort.
18. I wish for you, gratitude.
19. I wish for you, surrender.
20. I wish for you, wisdom.
21. I wish for you to be heard.
22. I wish for you, light.
23. I wish for you, relaxation.
24. I wish for you, joy.
25. I wish for you, deep sleep.
26. I wish for you, time.
27. I wish for you, clarity.
28. I wish for you to be seen.
29. I wish for you, LOVE.
30. I wish for you, sweet dreams.
31. I wish for you to dance.
32. I wish for you, desire.
33. I wish for you, challenge.
34. I wish for you, good sex.
35. I wish for you, hugs.
36. I wish for you, kisses.
37. I wish for you, connection.
38. I wish for you, play time.
39. I wish for you, space.
40. I wish for you, LOVE.

May these wishes come true for YOU.

*I found these wishes in an old folder. I wrote this a few years ago to a dear person in my life. It’s as true now as it ever was for ALL who read this post. Read often and know that you are LOVED.*

Two days with two curious kids

June 10, 2013

She is three. He is six.

“Aunt Mo?”

“What?”

Her question.

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Her statement.

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Etc…

To Connect, Be Human

June 6, 2013

The Joy of Movement is the first principle of Nia White Belt’s Thirteen Principles, “which directs you to seek and experience joy in every movement”.

My friend Amy embodies The Joy of Movement and is an inspiration to me every time I am graced by her presence. Sadly, today was our last dance – at least for a while. After a few big hugs and tears streaming down our faces, Amy bravely stepped out of the studio and continued dancing down her path, to eastern Iowa, in pursuit of her passions. I miss her and I wish her all the best.

This practice of Nia has opened me to a deeper level of consciousness, a level that, quite frankly, I don’t always want.

Joy  vs. sorrow. This kind of joy is not the same kind of Joy that is practiced in Principle #1 (you’ll have to continue dancing Nia or take a White Belt training to dig deeper into The Joy of Movement). The kind of joy I’m speaking of has an opposite emotion. Sorrow. When I choose and accept complete joy, I know that I have also accepted the possibility of deep sorrow.

I know how to push it away, stuff it, cover it up with distraction, and pretend it doesn’t exist. And by “it”, I mean both joy and sorrow. I can’t count how many times I’ve wanted to go skipping down a public street or grocery store aisle in complete amazement at the beauty of my wonderfully complicated life. Instead, I stuff it, push it down, smile to myself and walk on. Why? I don’t want people to think I’m crazy – oh wait, I am crazy. I don’t want to draw attention to myself – oh wait, yeah, sometimes I like the attention.

Pushing away sorrow is exactly what I was doing yesterday. I was fixated on a connection I have seemingly lost and was having a pity party of epic proportions. Instead of fully embracing the sorrow I felt, I was telling myself stories, making assumptions, and headed toward being the victim – uh oh – definitely not a healthy place to reside. I went to my “Nia toolbox” and pulled out Stage 3 of FreeDance – Pretend, Fake It, Act As If. And then I went to Facebook.

“Soooooo Good!” I posted as my status update. It was a big, fat lie but for the rest of the day, I acted as if it were true. And in pretending I was “Soooooo Good!” I acknowledged that I wasn’t. I cried the tears I needed to cry and got down to the business of the present moment. I was sad. I knew that if I kept pushing it away, the imbalance would affect my body in the form of illness (headache, stomach ache, and anxiety are my main stress indicators). I trusted that my emotions would eventually shift.

It worked. My sadness subsided and I didn’t lie on Facebook today. Seek attention? Maybe. Seek connection? Yes. A friend posted the following today:

“Today’s Moment of Truth: I’m not sure there’s any number of Facebook likes that can replace a hug. – Seth Godin.”

As Amy and I said our good-byes this morning she said, “This sucks.” My first reaction was to comfort and make her feel better by finding something positive to say. “No, it doesn’t, you’ll have……..Yep”, I looked her in the eyes, “yeah, it does suck”, I agreed. And with the acknowledgement of the truth we were able to laugh a little, hug again, and honor The Joy of Movement as we stepped into the next moment.

Up a Notch

June 2, 2013

It is almost summer here in the Midwest and I am ready for the heat. I flew (yeah, you heard me correctly. I FLEW!!!) to Montgomery, Texas and spent a week at Soma Ranch, where I dove into my fourth Nia Intensive training. I am proud to share that I am a Nia Brown Belt teacher.

When I started writing this blog in 2011, I was a Nia White Belt teacher with big dreams and a SERIOUS fear of flying (and general anxiety about traveling). Many things have happened in the past two years and….TA DA….I’m flying, traveling, and even MORE passionate about Nia as a tool on my journey through this life.

Nia has been transformational for me. My body has changed in ways that I love and more importantly, my relationship to my body has changed. It has become my passion to share this amazing tool with others. With YOU! My personal Nia practice includes dancing five Nia classes per week (three at the studio and two in my home studio with Nia DVDs). During the month of June, I am committing myself to dancing six Nia classes per week (four at the studio and two at home). I invite you to join me in growing your Nia practice. Would you commit to dancing one more Nia class per week than you currently dance? Join me in heating up the dance floor this June as you dive into YOUR practice!

You can join me in many ways. If you are in the Des Moines area, I would love to welcome you to Radiant Om Yoga Studio. If you have found this blog randomly and are not in Des Moines, click here to find a class near you. Nia classes, workshops, and trainings are being taught all over the world!

I’m turning it up a notch in June. I am committing to deepening my Nia practice. I am committing to sharing that journey with you via this blog.

What will you be doing to “turn it up a notch” this summer?

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